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| When you give those broken pieces of your heart to God, rest in the fact that he will give you the grace needed for the healing process. |
One Sunday during praise and worship God showed me a heart, that was a brilliant crystal clear blue color and about ¾’s of it was covered with a hard shell, which was a dark- grayish color. Later that night, I wondered about what I saw and what it meant. I asked God and he showed me that I had only given him a very small piece of my heart and that he wanted it all. He showed me that darker area had been calloused over and hardened by pain and un-forgiveness. He showed me that it had been shattered and pieces of my heart had been left with the people who had hurt me. My failed marriage received a piece, my natural father who disowned me received a piece, being taken away from my Grandparents at 13 when they were the only ones I believed that truly loved me received a piece, every rejection by someone I believed loved me received a piece, aborting my baby received a piece. Every event in my life that left a painful memory and a wake of un-forgiven people all had pieces of my heart. I too had a firm grip on part of my own heart because of so many bad choices I did not feel that I deserved to forgive myself. This caused a whirl wind of self destruction and constant sabotaging of the good things that came my way.
God then told me to reclaim every piece I had given away or left behind, forgive and release the people including myself. Painfully I did this then I presented all the pieces to him. I prayed through my tears Father here are the broken pieces of my heart. It’s clearly in a lot of pieces and I believe that if you told me to bring it to you all broken and messed up like this that you are going to fix it. The only way it can be fixed is if you fix it, only you know how to make it whole and complete again. I can not see how this is possible but I am going to just trust you, it’s all I can do.
When old memories tried to rush into my thought. I would just begin to repeat I trust you God, even when I didn’t feel it I just said it, and cried it, and spoke it in silence, screamed it when I was alone and could feel the pressure of things trying to reestablish themselves. When I had no words I would just trust that God knew and understood what was in every difficult breathe I took at that moment. The hardest person to forgive was myself I felt I deserved misery.
While standing in the presence of God I felt deserving of what he had forgiven and cleansed me from; for what he had already given his life for? Wow. When God opens your eyes he allows you to see how the lies of the enemy causes you to walk around locked in a cage while carrying the key in your pocket.
When you repent and ask God to forgive you he no longer remembers your offense it is then up to you to renew your mind to what God thinks about you and how he views you. This is a process that takes time. You have to continually tell the enemy that the lies he is speaking to you no longer apply and you have to replace the lies with the truth, God’s Word”, the word of God washes you. As you begin to transform your mind, you will no longer accept the lies of your past.
Ephesians 5:25b-26…..He gave up his life for her to make her holy and clean, washed by the cleansing of God's word.
The mind is the main area the enemy uses when establishing strongholds that make you operate your daily life from the core belief of lies and deception. When you begin to take your mind back he will fight against it but trust God and have faith and patience’s that if God says it’s possible, it is possible. One day you will look back and realize you are able to see your past from a distance and experience freedom from the hold it once had on you. So be strong because God wants to and will help you through the process, his grace and strength is there for you every step of the way.
Psalm 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
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